I'm just a kid-simple plan
Sunday, January 30, 2005
I woke up it was 7
I waited til 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I've got alot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending every day on your own
And here it goes
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me
And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed staring at these 4 walls again I
'll try to think about the last time I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go & they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me
What the fuck is wrong with me
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored & I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight
I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cuz I'm just a kid tonight
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
10:45:00 PM
SCREWED UP LIFE
Friday, January 28, 2005
STRESS! CANT Cope! MIND GOING TO EXPLODe
a psychotic lunatic is being bred here, BEWAre, pISS ME OFF AND I swear i will fucking kill u
Going to see a counsellor on tuesday, my mum made that appointment. I need professional help, i cant keep everything inside my heart, its too fucking TORTOROUS. ITS affecting my MEntal health.
FUCK SCHOOL! FUCK THE SYSTEM! FUCK HYPOCRITES!
LIFE IS UNFAIR! ACCEPT IT LAR!
Dont believe what people appear to be, LOOKS ARE SO SUPERFICIAL
I want to go poly but i dun think its possible cos MINDEF MIGht not defer me again. FUCK IT lar, why was i born in april, if i was born in december then it should be no problem! FUCK!
8:38:00 PM
Maths = pain in the ass
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
As my title implies i am going to rant about maths. On thursday theres gonna be a maths test covering integration and numerical methods. ANd i cant barely do numerical methods ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, why must maths be so confusing, these weeks going to be a test for the mind and body, just flunked my pull ups, argh need to do something and watch my diet as well. THeres a stupid history debate thing that i have yet to do, PLANNING TO do it later, argh why me???????????
Today got econs test, managable lar, i think can pass i'll be satisfied. ANd bit torrent is agonizingly slow, still havent finish dloading seed destiny epi 15 even though i have started dloading it around like 230pm
HAi the sianess of life is so ironic, u wish to grow up but the burdens will arise, let thy sorrows fly high into the sky only to let new ones push u to the ground.
I think i am going nuts no wait cannot be lar, humans cant turn into nuts, haha LAME
9:12:00 PM
Sianified
Monday, January 24, 2005
SIANZZZZZzzzzzzz, its a way of life. MAn everydays a routine man, what did i do today, not much, after having lunch with a friend went back home around 4 and then slacked around. Fell asleep at 5 pm and woke up at 8. I thought i had overslept unitl tuesday morning, and i was like OMG, rush to brush up when i heard my mum say dinner time >>>dots........ wau lau, must have slept real soundly. Then i was thinking, dun tell me i didnt bathe and slept until the next day still in cj uniform.
Ok so the only productive thing i did was to try to study some econs for like less than an hour , argh studying is just so plain sian. MUst get focused man, i dun wanna screw up my tests...wait who DOESNT?
So now i am in front of the comp slacking again, and trying to dload seed destiny fan subbed version. ARGH super slow man.
Man i think i should go and take a shower and erm maybe go do some econs, got to get off my LAZY BUTT AND DO SOME work
10:51:00 PM
WHen i dream tonite
Sunday, January 23, 2005
OH NO!!!! ITS ALREADY SUNDAY!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!CANNOT BE WAIT!! IT IS ARGHHHH!! only 24 hours more until monday and another week of SKool. YUX! MAn i sure am in slackers paradise for the time being.
What did i do today? Erm woke up at noon, went out for lunch. Came home slack, did some maths which i fuking hate , almost 2 hours and only like ten questions done SCREW MATHS, studied a bit of econs, went out to meet a good buddy of mine, had dinner wanted to watch aviator but no ticks so went to play pool. Along the way stopped by crumpler store cos he wanted to get one. MY pool skills sux even more now, nvm at least still fun to play. Came home around 11pm again. Now surfing and slacking, at the same time dloading GUNDAM SEED DESTINY EP 15 ,cant wait!!!! i WISh bit torrent was FASTER.
Oh yar stomach damn pain after playing pool, must be the long john silver meal i ate for dinner, argh too much fries and fats....
sigh gonna sleep soon before 2 am so that i dun black out.
1:23:00 AM
First long weekend of 05
Friday, January 21, 2005
Well now i am taking this friday to basically chill and relac one corner. Ah i just luv it when u can practically stone away and not bother doing anithing related to school work, what bliss!
yesterday was a rather tiring day. Had to rush to finish up maths hw, 2 source based qns and finally did some solid work for gp. this marks the end of Relief teacher Jeremy, from next week onwards its ..........................................>>>>>> No prizes for guessing<<<<< HAzel FErn. Oh , tests are coming fast, got maths and econs, still need to read up for that history debate....bleahz what a drag.
Alrite after school i met up with some of my old classmates( Jonathan, Sherman, Ronald) from 406 '03, had a blast just chatting eating and catching up. Ronald was already planning for uni, like which uni he wanted to go to overseas ( COlumbia or some other uni in the ivy league) Basically we thought that it would be better to pursue uni studies overseas. Later two other guys now i poly came ( Bernard and Alphonsus) They have changed a lot, with tatoos, ear piercings and not forgetting their cigarette packs. Life seems to be blast for them, but i think they are not really concerned for their future
Watched the movie Elektra, originally wanted to watch the aviator but tickets were sold out. Elecktra's quite nice just that the movie was a tad bit short.
Afterwards, we went to Newton hawker centre cos one of them was still hungry, couldnt find a seat though. Saw a couple of cj peeps too. Oh also saw Esther nai and her aj pals eating, said hi to her, haha she still seems the same. In the end we left cos the place was simply so crowded even though it was like 1030pm.
So reached home around 11 and managed to catch some american idol which is hilarious, some of them really cant sing but still insist they can. Others have potetential to do well.
now i am stoning in front of the comp on a friday afternoon. Zzzzzzz
3:11:00 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
..................ANGST WHAT A BEAUTIFUL WORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it works wonders by making me Fucking cranky and pissed so much that my heart literallyaches. ARGH this is one of those shitty days where u dont even know what u are typing.
I cant bloody concentrate on my work, all i think i about is how to improve my PATHETIC SOcial life and wanting to have fun. HEck if i could get stright A's i wouldnt mind sacrificing all these things , but NO i dont. Now i am supposed to be doing maths, but NO i am fucking procastinating.............SCREW MATHS NO SCREW HOMEWORK, SCREW THE FUCKING SYSTEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just want to break away and go to some utopia that only exists in dreams.
SOmetimes i wondered why did i stay in cj last year...................... would i be better off somewhere else, i hate this , why wont i be more fucking optimistic instead i am fucking pessimistic.
IN short , THIS IS A FUCKED UP POST
NOT HAPPY AR!!!!!!!! THEN FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9:29:00 PM
FINALLY
Monday, January 17, 2005
FINALLY my blog is working ONCE AGAIN. ITS been like how long since i last blogged. A hell lot of things have been going on since 2005 started.
FIrst things first, a new year, wishes and resolutions. I sincerely hope they come true, and at the same time pray for the victims of the tsunami that turned xmas season into one of grieving.
Ok, i'm officially in jc2 since 3 Jan 2005, which means more shit is gonna come. SO far things are managable, new teachers have come and some old ones have left. Mr aljunied has left to be replaced by MR Raju, Hazel Fern is still on maternity leave which is a good thing until next week. So now GP lessons are taken by this dude called jeremy, cool by my standards, have u seen a teacher who utters vulgarities and doesnt really teach a thing? No more chinese, econs teacher is still MIss Cheng ( believe it or not), well at least she teaches better this year
The seating arrangement in class is MIRROR IMAGE of 1to7 2004. I'm still in the backrow, made up of 5 guys, yao,zz, jj,dom and me. Hmph all i can say that the class still looks as divided as ever, though not that obvious but u will get the idea. Somehow some things just dont feel right...
tommorrow will be parents teachers meeting for the first time in j2. Hmph i sure dunwan to have a repeat of last year..........painful memories still haunt me.
To joel sim, all the best dude for your future endeavours, hope u are enjoying ur work and will get into the course u want in Poly.
Since december i have been hooked on the follow up sequel to gundam seed, gundam seed destiny simply rox!!! all the times spent dloading have been worth it.
8:45:00 PM
